Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Today's work wasn't very good .. morning passed normally but afternoon was really painstaking =/ .. dunno should quit anot .. and how .. and when ..
So me and ct was discussing about jobs a few wks ago and i portrayed one too many images of greener pastures .. speculations really .. wasn't very seriously considering .. and bogged with the tedium of work, he set an arbitrary deadline: b4 cny. However, there is a problem. There are only 2 of us having this job scope and if we quit together, the facility we're servicing will be down -theoretically- so i suggested to stagger our resignation so that we can give shorter notice n being the 'junior' i offered to stay on until the company got replacement .. i didn't have clear plans to the (very near) future yet so its a might-as-well-since-i'm-in-no-hurry .. not a oh-look-at-me-i'm-so-noble-i-sacrifice-for-you ... hahaa .. if you get what i mean ... but the wkend after he set his resignation date -and told the manager-, me, with lots of time at hand (at mind), considered the alternatives and decided otherwise ..
So it was a pang-seh .. hahaa .. oops sorry!!! really wasn't intentional .. but i must admit i wasn't really looking out for you =X .. sorry! On the other hand, u treat the prawn from the mix veg is very nice! and it wasn't successful in making me feel guilty .. hur hur hur ... lol .. okay la .. i'll let u say the '有做工的人' and '没有做工的人' for the rest of your life as compensation ..... but i oso got retribution la .. now the company is like soooo actively looking for replacement tt i think when i finally got a chance to 培养 my 后代 i'll be just in time for matriculation.
and then after tt reach home want to bathe but the bathroom is occupied but i didn't want to wait so i took out my clarinet and create some noise pollution. hmm .. can't really play le nowadays .. embouchure is very weak .. same problem with air leak .. trying to play the clarinet well is very frustrating ... always end up anyhow play .. but on special occasions when blessed with a good reed and great mouthpiece and an on-form day .. can be very rewarding too .... once in the blue moon ... haha .. but either ways it really takes my mind off things ... an escape from sch work .. a source of self esteem -used to play it very well ..
used to- .. an outlet for frustration (brilliant semi-demi-quaver-runs into the altissimo at fortissimo .. el camino real is the perfect example! hahaa .. actually tts semi quaver only) .. or just nothing better to do.. Still remember when i got it de .. 5/5/00 .. almost 7 yrs old le wor .. oh ya .. inspiration for 6 digit pin as well (serial no.).. lol ..... of cos i've changed all of them by now .. except the as400 (the database programme) ..
Life these few years has been a downward slide. Time in NS is an obligation .. no-need-to-think- life as some will put it .. Work now is a mindless automation ... call .. read the script .. follow the programmed responses instilled from repetition. Once read a review on maple story .. and the author described the repetitive work required to complete the quests as 'grind'. For example there is this quest ahh .. got part one and part 2 .. part one: 'eliminate 99 green mushrooms' .. part 2: 'eliminate 999 green mushrooms' ... hur hur hur ... so fun! ;P .. but its easier then the jumping one la .. like super mario like tt ... hahaaa .. dun be mistaken ... i nv play for very long alr ... probably won't touch it again ... i'm digressing ..
Everything is changing too quickly .. with everybody split into different jobs and different areas of study .. like a stream that has reached a dead end .. and forced into a multitude of tiny trickles .. some to rich fertile land .. and others not so .. its like so out-on-your-own ... hai~ i'm looking forward to matriculation ..
ok la i shall continue another time .. been writing this for hrs ... hahaa .. like so free right?? ..... wrong!! still got the farewell thing to do .. present to wrap .. ib secure device to register .. the sidebar u c on the right add more things .. ahhhhhhhh .... tmr will be another long working day .. =(
~thinking of you~ 10:25 PM