Saturday, March 10, 2007

Words defy me .. hahaaa .. don't know .. its like i always cannot think of much to say .. it just doesn't come naturally lor ... how?? and some times its even worse .. cos ahh .. its like if u keep quiet for some time alr then later want to say something abit strange right .. like charp in like that .... and it's been quite a problem .. had bouts of that during the US trip 2 yrs ago and the hc concert tt aj band guest played .. its a bad feeling laa!! hahaaa .. its like ahh .. just cannot get into the atmosphere .. cannnot entertain the ppl around you .. and u'll feel like so out of place and awkward .... budden oso maybe because everyone else is closer to each other in the first place laaa .. so abit difficult oso .. hai~ doesn't seem like a problem tt can grow out of .. at least typing is still okay laa .. sms or msn or here on a blog ...

But this leads to another issue cos its like communication is a prerequisite to closer ties and a lack of it leads to a deficiency in all your relations .. u know .. too surface .. too brittle .. or is it so .. i don't know .. but i feel really incapable when i see grps of ppl sharing close friendships .. being able to create so much fun when together .. such pleasures in life i've missed

~thinking of you~ 11:19 AM